sleepyskin's Diaryland Diary

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I know you don't hear me

the month that is about to start was
supposed to turn out so
entirely different.
we would be happy as the leaves fell and you
would miss me from afar and I
wouuld see you in mars as she fell back
for a few hundred more years.
under the northern lights that night
I figured confidently that I would
always be under the same sky with you.
I figured you'd retreat to bed, shaking
your head at me and letting me
lay in the grass.
now every song on the radio starts
with something sad like
'how the hell did we end up like this?'
and I only cry in the shower now
because my shame and anger just
get washed away.
my tears are water and the
water is tears and as i
lean against the tiles,
chest heaving in pain
I know no one hears me.
I know you don't hear me.

2:05 PM - August 31, 2003

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