sleepyskin's Diaryland Diary

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feeling dis.con.nec.ted.

feeling disconnected...feeeling.out.of.synch. feeling lost without you. feeling lightening in my skin. in my mouth. warm and soft and needy.

you were supposed to last forever! you were supposed to hold my hand! (they never want to hold my hand) you.. you... you.. I hate you. I love you. I hate to love you. I love you I love you I.... I don't.

eating to fill emptiness. laughing to pass time. faking to fool the world. running to escape myself.

I do not want you. I do not love you. I will never love you the way.. you want.. me.to.be. perfect. skinny. the charm on your arm. fake.

I'm tired. I am tired of waiting for you to come around. You never will. It's over.

5:21 PM - August 15, 2000

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